To New Starts

Today was a wonderful day, full of many surprises and feeling of greatness and change to come. Nice change though! First of all, I weighed myself this AM, I started at 306 yesterday and was 303 lbs this morning, I'll take it. LOL  I know it's not great to lose weight this quick, but in the long haul, I'm going to add carbs back into my life and make some major changes, I need this, my family needs this. So, that started the morning to a great start.

When I got to work, I was cking my FB, reading my tweets, and cking many other things for the day. I got a txt message from a school friend telling me to check my email that I had a great letter. It was a letter to say that I was eligible to advance to the NCLEX (state boards) so that I may try for my LVN licensure. I was elated and went ahead and scheduled my test. Now, I should probably give you some background on the 3 friends I have at school. I've been friends with one for a while and we've been throught a lot together, held each other's back when we needed the help and upheld each other. She's a great gal. My other friend we've only really become good friends near the end, but no matter the time, I adore my friends. Anyway, we have all struggled together in this journey and when it came to HESI (our exit exam for school) it just felt like we would never get through it.

One day, my mom gave me this CD and it said "Watch for 3's in 2010" by Pastor Benny Thomas. Now a lot of people feel that his word is a hoax, but I assume it's for each person to determine who they want to listen to. That day I listened to him, changed my life, our lives. :)  Now to back it up a bit, we had sat for our first HESI exam on the 3rd of February, needless to say we all failed. I guess "fail" is a negative term, we just didn't surpass the points value they determined we should meet. Ok, so on to test #2... we all studied, did what we thought was right only to get to the testing site, Feburary 24 and we didn't get through it again. I don't know if you have ever been defeated 2x at something, but it can really bring you down and I just felt like I didn't have a chance. I had asked God many a time if I was in the right place, right school, right position to possibly be in. I love helping people and I love the medical world, yet it seemed that it didn't love me back. I felt that I didn't learn everything I was supposed to and it was taking a hold of me, my life, my thoughts, my attitude. I just couldn't get passed feeling like a FAILURE! I know I wasn't, but when it gets to the point where you feel you have no chance, you just can't seem to shake it.

Ok, so back to the CD. I don't know why my mom laid it down for me, but I just picked it up, put it in the computer and hit "play" and it was the best CD that I could have listened to and it was meant for me, meant for us 3. I was just listening to this man go on and on about the revelation of the number 3 in the bible, "everything happens in 3's", he said, "weather it be good or bad. When you see the #3, just know that God is trying to get your attention, he needs to tell you something." Ok, yes I get that, but what does this have to do with me? I just kept listening praying that God would tell me why I just felt so compelled to listen to this disk, to this man that repeated himself so much. As I listened, I focused in on the calender just cking the date that was to come that would be my test date, scared out of my mind and feared the worst. All of a sudden, it's like a light bulb went on, I "saw" everything I needed to see. I started crying and said, "I heard you Lord, I get it."

This is what I got from his words: "Think of 3's, this is your 3rd time to take this test, March 17th fell on the 3rd month (March), 3rd week of the month and Wednesday is the 3rd day of the week. There are 3 of you that have struggled together, tried to keep each other lifted and you will all 3 feel success on this day and you will pass." I was so excited and I talked to my mom when she was done with her appointment and proceeded to tell her what I saw. I don't know if you have ever felt like something was just right with the world and NO MATTER WHAT, this was MY confirmation for us and I was going to tell them about it. Ok, so if you got goosebumps, great, we all did. ;) After talking to my friend about this confirmation (not one of the 3) she said, "Well look at the calendar, it's St Patricks day too, 3 leaf clover." I was seeing 3's everywhere. It was the best feeling in the world. I just knew that was going to be our night and low and behold, it was OUR night. We all 3 passed. Praise God.

So on to the essential part, after my long drawn out story, the 2 friends and myself, us 3 are going to do our ethics test online together tomorrow, as it's open book, and then we have all scheduled our NCLEX on the 6th day of April at 8A. I can't tell you what it means to me to walk with my friends to this test and watch us succeed. One of the friends said, "You're my good luck charm." Yet, I had NOTHING to do with this except God entrusted me with his message. I told them, it's not me, it's God and he's letting us know that everything is going to be ok and were going to move forward, together. What a great feeling.

Also, today I took my 2 daughters to the dr's office for their 2 yr (Kadence) and 2 mo (Isabella). They did great considering they each got shots. Isabella is doing great, 3 mo, weighs 11 lbs 11 oz, 23 1/4 inches long.  She's 55% for height and 30% for weight. Doesn't seem she's grown much at all and for me this is a new one because I've never had one of MY children be that low in the weight department! ;)  Don't get me wrong, I pray that she doesn't have any weight problems, but yet I don't want to see "Failure to thrive" either.  Ok, Kadence was 33 lbs, 35 inches long. She's 75% for height and 95% for weight, as you can see, this is what's "normal" to me. LOL  All in all, they did great and our Ped was very pleased with everything.

Ok, now w/ the low carb plan, here we go:

Breakfast:
20 oz water
3 eggs scrambled
1 link sausage
pinch of cheese

Lunch:
Low Carb tortilla (wheat) with fajita ckn, carrots & cheese rolled up
Extra Fajita ckn w/ carrots mixed with 2 hardboiled eggs

Snack:
Apple

Dinner:
Pre-marinated fajita ckn
Bacon
Scrambled eggs
Cheese

Snack:
Sugar free jello (Strawberry banana) with whip cream

Total water:
20 oz (Ok, time to load up on the water)

Workout:
None. Seems everytime I "plan" to do a workout, I'll have NO time at work and or time when I get home. Ugh, I know, seems like excuses, but I'll get past this too.

Today was a great day, thank you God. Everything worked out pretty well, I kept on my food plan as I'm not going overboard on what fruits & veggies I can have b/c many of them you're not supposed to eat and I'm not going to count my calories or my carbs, I'm just going to make sure that I know my limits.

Well seems I've "talked" enough for now, I'll be sure to update more tomorrow and keep you updated on my plan.

G'nite & sweet dreams friends and when life gets you down, keep looking up so the devil can't see your face. :)

Fresh start

I guess I should start off with "hi" and "welcome" to my new blog. I figure it's time to keep my life, weight loss, struggles, acheivements all in one place. I'm sure later on it would be nice to see all that I've done, surpassed, etc. So, here we go....

So today was day 1 on the low carb... didn't do too bad and very pleased. I just hope I can continue this and get some weight off... I was doing great before I got pg w/ Izzy, but that's ok, she was well worth it. :)

Today I had:

Breakfast:
20 oz water
1 sau, egg & cheese taquito (no tortilla)
1 bacon, egg & cheese taquito (no tortilla)
Added 2 packets of salsa

Lunch:
Grilled ckn club salad (no tomatoes, crutons)
1 packet of Bacon Ranch
1/2 liter Diet Dr Pepper

Dinner:
Baked ckn
Broccoli w/ cheese sauce that hubby made
1 can Diet Dr P

Snack:
sugar free popsicles

Total water:
20 oz

Workout:
None, I planned to do 3 mile WWL (Walking w/ Leslie) but that didn't happen b/c I was too busy at work and got home and was overtaken w/ things to get done... tomorrow, I will attempt my 3 mile walk. :)


I say that I did pretty well, I need to increase my water intake, but tomorrow is a new day and I'll be sure to keep a jug of water handy. :) So all in all, day went pretty well. I just cooked my bkfast tonight for in the AM & made some boiled eggs if I feel hungry during the day to take with me. I also made some Strawberry Banana jello and I'll have that for dessert tomorrow w/ a little whip cream. Yum! :)

Starting weight: 306 (cringe, I was 250 pre-pregnancy w/ Izzy) *sigh*
Goal weight: 170

So, starting out and we'll see how well I do ... :D'

Some great news... got my certificate in the mail today, I'm officially a GVN (Graduate Vocational Nurse), now just for my state boards (NCLEX) and I'll offically be an LVN. Wahoo, so exciting. It's been a long 18 mo and I'm so estatic and love my family for all the support they've given me during this time, not to mention my friends. :) So any and all prayers would be much appreciated. *hugs*

Ok, well I guess it's time to get off here and get to bed, it's after midnight and I can tell I'll be exhausted tomorrow and tomorrow is yet another long day. :)

G'nite friends.